Uploading to God: My heart's cry, and His ideas for me

October 1, 2021

It’s a remarkable fire that’s been lit inside of me today. Holy Spirit thank you. Thank you for seeing me, wanting me, using me, and inspiring me. Thank you for your perfect timing and the way you so skillfully have woven the threads in my tapestry to become something usable. I’ve cried out time and again to you wanting to know why, how, what, when and who am I? You reply with “I love you.” You are my Beloved child. You are a warrior princess. You are my ambassador to the world. You are a difference maker Elizabeth. Your mother was correct, to whom more is given more is required. You’ve given me a lot and now I’m excited to be used a lot. It’s no big deal to you Lord that it’s taken me half a century to become who I am now. I’m beginning to believe again that You will use me for bigger things, not because they are bigger, because you care about the small things too, but because there is a lot that needs to get done and you like using the unlikely things of this world to confound the so called ‘wise.’ Lord, I am not wise. But I am teachable. It’s daunting to think of all I may have to learn and do. I don’t like to study. Golly, I have a difficult time sitting still to read. Maybe I won’t have to, maybe you will show me how to do that better too. I know a few things. I know that I need more of Your Spirit to guide my thoughts, actions, and words. I know that You will get all the glory for whatever happens in my life. I know that you’ve given me a partner who isn’t afraid of what might happen if you use me. I know that you’ve prepared me in more ways than I comprehend for the variety of tasks required. So, I thank you. I thank you for giving me a desire for more: more or you, more responsibility, more songs, more words, more meaningful relationships, more growth, more healing, more power, more love.

Am I doubting? Are you calling me and giving me this desire? Are you giving me Your heart’s desire as my own? Is this what you meant by giving me my heart’s desire? Your heart. Your broken heart. I know I don’t even really know if that kind of pain is endurable. I hope I don’t have to live through more pain…but if you say so, I will. You will be my Sustainer, my Comforter, and my Way-maker.

I want to help people. Now more than ever, I want to make a difference in the world on a global scale. The joy that you fill me with is incomparable to anything else I could put inside of me. No liquid, drug, food, fashion, fun, family, or talent can fill me like you do. I love you. Thank you for loving me too. Thank you for loving me with wild abandon. Thank you for breaking down the walls, eradicating my enemies, silencing the naysayers, and giving me a better perspective on what’s possible. Show me more, dare I ask this? On second thought, no. Rather, show me what you want me to know. You alone know what I can handle. I can’t figure this out. I’m not strong enough, smart enough, cute enough, clever enough or spiritual enough to do what I imagine. I worship You in Spirit and in Truth. Forgive me Lord. Forgive me for doubting you, for mucking around and wasting my talents. Forgive my wickedness and remove those sinful desires once and for all. I surrender 2%, 4%, 25%...as much as I know how to…I don’t want to lie to myself or You.

Your Beloved daughter,

Elizabeth Anne

Rest and be Blessed

Don’t Worry About It (Philippians 4:6,7)

Who is this Man that even the winds and the waves obey Him?

Linens and Things (details, caring, stuff)

And the Winner is….?

Too Stressed to be Blessed (worry is a thief and destroyer)

Pain is a Good Motivator

Jingles, Jungles and Juicing

He Put a New Song in My Heart

Sober October

Please come to my party…I need a talker

You’re an Influencer.

Discouraged? Keep going…Ice cream might be right around the corner

Grandma’s Legacies (what she liked and what we learn from our not so long ago)

Foibles or Favorites?

Who among you is wise? (look up verses)

Satan’s Scheme: Money Laundering- Placement, Layering, Integration

Riding bareback: The freedoms of a 12-year-old girl

Tightness: The harness of parental disease

Adult Kids: Yes, they look too much like me

Little Kids need a stronger Mommy

Wine Isn’t Cultured

Don’t take your handyman for granted

All from Ronco for $19.95 (what is truly valuable?)

Do you know who the “Time Lady” is? (Feeling old before it’s time)

Count back change…or not.

Be liked or be right

Kitchen tips for the microwave mindset (impatience)

Pour A Little Love On It

Go ahead, let love in.

Forgiveness makes the strongest borders, and you move forward

Friends Forever? That’s a very long time.

Little People Want More

Guilt bs Shame

Good Grief Charlie Brown!

Play with the children (imagination stations)

Aisles and aisles of learning styles (God wires us uniquely)

Stone Soup

Self-Control: The Elusive Fruit

Life lessons from the plums

Bring on the Pain: I’m not afraid of it anymore, let’s do the work

When a Woman Cuts her hair off, watch out!

Daddy Remains

Get out all the buckets, pails and trash cans, it’s going to rain! Peace.

PLATFORMS:

Written studies

Blog

Podcasts

Podcasts with guests

Live videos

Music videos

Instagram

Facebook

YouTube

Sharing with my already made circle of friends

Seek out places to share from God’s bounty

Speaking

Praise/Worship

Special songs

Women’s Ministries

Children’s Ministries