Prayers in the dark

It’s dark outside and inside now,

I woke up early for a change and I like it. Warm, gentle caresses from my Darling husband, I slip out of bed…

A list of loose ends fills my mind of what to do before I leave at 8:15am.

I light a candle, then two in different rooms and smile

Thank you God for this safe place…

So many others in the world have nothing but their fractured lives and the clothes on their exhausted bodies, and they are cold. What’s worse, their children are scared and hungry, Mina has a new cold. Lord, why? Why must so many suffer while I get to live in this peaceful place?

Green tea, cacao powder, oat milk and date syrup.: who drinks this? I do. And it’s gone quicker than it takes to make it while the sun keeps rising behind me. I’m safe.

Lord! I’m so safe.

With a doctors appt an hour away, prepping for the surgery scheduled in 12 days. My voice has been almost gone with laryngitis for three days, vocal rest and every remedy and good food I can throw at it so I can sing today for one hour. And tomorrow for 1 1/2. I don’t know yet if I can hit a note above an A. I am safe. The car with nearly the best gas mileage available today with gas at $6 a gallon, a warm robe, this silence. And you Lord. You’re right here. Are you right over there too?

“In My presence is fullness of joy.”

“…and the peace of God will guard your heart and mind in Christ Jesus.”

These truths are the catalysts for change within my psyche and soul today.

I sit here quietly, and wait for you. As they wait for you. As we all wait for renewal and Your peace to flood our world.

I’m not empty I’m full of grief

I need to be still

You remove my pain as you come alongside me and give me strength to begin again

You refill me with love, with

Hope

Joy

Peace

Purpose

Passion

And I am still, and stronger now, enough for today…

You make my way secure

I am not alone

You’re carrying me

In Your presence is fullness of joy, I’m crying tears of relief. I am safe in your arms.

Gratitude with joy is spilling out now, it’s going to get on everything today. This is my happy way of life, obeying your commands.

Maranatha…come quickly Lord.